No regrets.

I have finally gotten my big butt back to the yoga studio...finally.

It feels good and it had to be on my own time.  When I went back to school I was freaked out.  It has been over ten years since I last took a class.  Who could expect my life to be exactly the same as it was?  

It took me exactly three months to figure it out and I feel fine.  I feel good.

I know what it is and I know what I want.  I know where I want to be and I know who I want it to be with.  I am done with the past and I am on to the future. 

I have no regrets.

To add or not to add?

It is so strange sometimes being online and being so visible and out there to so many people.  Sure you can figure out how to block yourself or "hide" online but just about everything you do leaves a footprint and this is such a strange concept sometimes.

In the last month I have gotten some very strange friend requests on either facebook or myspace that really made me think and wonder.  One was from someone from my past, someone I would rather forget, and it really made me wonder, why?  Why would this person want to bring this all back, see what I am doing now when this person HAS to know that they hurt me so terribly (and probably vice versa) so many years ago?  What makes you click on that "add as friend" button and why?  I often wonder that myself of the friend requests that I have made and I always think twice especially when it comes to people of my past.  I am sure I am not the only one who goes through this - it can be a very strange situation I think.

The other friend request was from someone that I would never have thought would think I was ever their friend.  (Did that make sense?)  ;o)  When you know people from and through work and only work, how do you know what that personal relationship would be like?  I guess that also brings up a good point to me as well; why do I think that we wouldn't be friends outside of work?  It is a bit more complicated then that in this particular case.  The way we interacted, the impression they made on me and the way that they left.  Now that we no longer have work as that tie I really don't see anything more; so should I approve that friend request?

Hell no!  LOL.  But seriously, being online and so visible sometimes freaks me out.  Who knows who is out there spying and lurking...?

What I do love is how many awesome people I have gotten back in touch with and how good that has made me feel.  There have been some pretty amazing people that I have known in the last 32 years of my life and I feel so lucky to have been given the chance to find them once again and reconnect.  Technology has definitely been a positive in most of our lives but at times I think there has to be a limit.  There has to be a point when we must assess how much we are connected and that really, we have to "unplug" every once in a while.

Thank you facebook and myspace for getting me back in touch with those that I love and admire and for keeping me in touch with my amazing friends!  I look forward to many more friends and requests and keeping that connection alive!

Books, revisited.

Oh, how I have neglected my little blogspot.  It's been quite the whirlwind of work, school, book clubs, working out, socializing, boyfriend time, cat time, etc., etc., etc.!  So now I have a bit of catching up to do.

Ahem.

Things have been going well lately.  I am still trying to get into a proper school groove, if there is such a thing, but have managed to so far successfully balance all of the things mentioned above.  The one thing that I have unfortunately cut back on is my regular attendance at my Bikram yoga studio (I hope Douglas will forgive me.)  At first I wasn't sure who was more upset about it - me or my faithful yoga buddy.  ;o)  BUT, also, at first I was SO overwhelmed I was happy to get some time back in my day so I could read my weekly ninety page assignments!

I did manage to work in a personal trainer and doing cardio at the gym downstairs in my work building so that I could get in and get out and go home and study!  The one thing I must say is that I have managed to stay VERY sane throughout all of this.  Sure there has been that moment or two where I just want to THROW Robert and Ahab out the front window but that's natural, right?  ;o)  I don't know where all of this balance has come from; maybe it's that steady yoga practice that I kept up that got me here or maybe it's just one of those things that happens every 7 years?  Well, what ever it is, it has been very helpful throughout all of my changes.

School has been good but it makes me wonder sometimes why do we even bother having in-person classes?  Yeah I understand that the interaction with other classmates face to face does have some merit but being able to do an accelerated program and doing your study work at your own pace just makes so much more sense!  Less time wasted, less gas used, etc!  Man, I should have figured this out a long time ago.

Okay, well, enough for now.  No more babbling.  Maybe one of these days I will make it back to yoga but for right now it is read, read, read, study, study, study, and write, write, write.  Back to the books!!